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10 May 2017 @ 04:46 am
Video of the play my church on on for Easter Sunday

29 April 2017 @ 08:34 am
At work, when I run the backup procedure each night, I have to put the server in safe mode. If I don't, files will eventually get corrupted and crash the system. When I shut it down, after a few minutes, and computer that's connected will be disconnected and an error message is displayed. The problem is that twice in a week, my Boss' computer somehow didn't get disconnected. That is a problem because it makes it look like I didn't put the server in safe mode and it's getting me in trouble with my boss. I need prayer that this will stop happening so I don't get moved to another shift or worse.
23 April 2017 @ 05:04 pm
It's probably been a year since the last time I posted here. Maybe longer! I know I'm sometimes active in comments, but only rarely.

This weekend had some low points. Yesterday I was driving a pastor from the jail where we had held a service for a group of inmates; one of them was saying that she wanted to have children someday but she was facing a 20 year sentence. At the end of that she'd be almost 50 and that would be the end of her dreams.
I lied to a PASTOR!!!Collapse )

This made the pastor (G) talk about his own family. He's an older gentleman, with kids older than I am, grandkids, and great-grandkids. This makes for a lot of family arrangements. He was talking about how two of the younger of his large extended family were living together without being married, and he was resigned to this but felt it was wrong. He suddenly looked at me and said "You, Hauke...you aren't currently living with someone you aren't married to, are you?"

"No," I said, which is a complete lie. There's so much he doesn't know about me, and I'm not in a hurry to tell him. Maybe that would have been a good opportunity, but it's clear that the church where we are members is not high on the "welcoming to gays" meter.

(As far as why I haven't married my partner I don't have a good answer for that. He thinks it's kind of stupid...I guess that's a good enough reason.)

I visited some inmates today instead of going to church, because I had a backlog of requests. I was in the visitation room and overheard someone else counseling someone who was being victimized by other female inmates in her dorm. They were trying to recruit her into something sexual with threats of violence switched with "love bombing"...the person counseling her kept going back to how homosexuals have been "given up by God, given over to perverse lusts" (paraphrasing Paul a bit). I didn't think it was the time to jump up and say "God loves gays!" since that wouldn't have really helped the inmate at all. Probably it just would have made her feel even more hopeless.

By the time I got out of there the last service at my church was almost over. Thinking about yesterday and this morning, I didn't really want to go in. I sat in the narthex, outside, and sort of spoke along with some prayers and other parts of the service that are the same every week, that I just know, and watched, thinking about how I didn't really belong there.

Communion went fast, people were singing the last hymn, and the crew up at the altar were walking around, giving communion to people who can't walk. I'm lost in my thoughts, and the next thing I know one of them, a guy I know but not by name, was there in front of me.

"I didn't expect you to come here," I said, and I think I started to say something else but I was caught off guard and sort of trailed off.

"Why wouldn't we," he asked? And I had communion.
21 April 2017 @ 04:43 pm
I entered FORGE's SAAM (Sexual Assault Awareness Month) design contest for a coloring page that will also be used as a t-shirt design. That felt daunting, since detail is important in coloring pages, and boldness is important in t-shirt designs.

And I won!

I'm excited, both at the win and at the prospect of seeing how people color in my design. It had a lighthouse theme, and I made the light from the lighthouse into a kind of stylized pride flag, so people can color it to suit their own identities.

Anyway, the link to the page is here, in case anyone in the group is interested in seeing or coloring it.

In other thoughts, I'm trying to remember if Rainbow Ark has a DW group as well--so many of my friends are leaving LJ after the new TOS came out. I am over there under the same user name, so feel free to friend me there regardless. (And here's hoping that supporting community and winning a design contest don't count as a "political" post and get me kicked off of LJ before I'm ready to leave.)
Current Mood: excitedexcited
What he says at 5:20 is something I've been thinking for years

15 April 2017 @ 07:52 am
13 April 2017 @ 05:18 am
My Gospel station on Pandora is trying to make me cry tonight. It played this song followed immediately by Amazing Grace

13 April 2017 @ 02:37 am
I can't stand it when other Christians try to get something banned because they can't be satisfied with not doing it themselves, they gotta try and take it away from everyone even if others doing it does no harm and has no effect on them. That's a contributing factor to us getting hated on for being Christians. Nowhere in the Bible are we called to be the moral police of society. Concerned about books with adult content getting into the hads of kids? That's why you monitor what your kids read
07 April 2017 @ 03:45 am
I read a little of the Bible every day and I'm currently in the book of Samuel. I understand why Saul had to die, but can someone please explain to me why Johnathan also had to die? He was a good man who was on David's side, even helping to protect David from Saul and Levitical law says that no man can be punished for the sins of his father